Wednesday, September 26, 2012

LVAD One Year Anniversary

 One year ago today Jason had his Lvad Implanted. I still remember it like it was yesterday. When I first saw him after surgery, tears were just rolling down my face. I felt so sorry for him, all the cords, monitors, IVs  breathing machine, it was quite over whelming I wasn't prepared for what I saw at all. He was centered in the bed so I couldnt even kiss him. All I could do is touch his arm and face. Even though he was in the ICU I was certain I was going to be able to stay the night. I talked to the nurse when she came in and she let me know that I could stay a little bit longer, but I couldnt spend the night. I started crying all over again, I did not want Jason to be alone. She promised me than that she was his only nurse and that if  I wanted I could call every hour and she would hold the phone to his ear so I could talk to him, even even though he still had the breathing tube in and could not talk.My favorite day was the second day, they removed his breathing tube and the first thing he did was rub my arm and say that he loved me. It was the sweetest thing ever!
From that day on, there was no stopping Jason. He was up and walking the next day, and too proud to take pain medicine I might add... We went through the scary school  and hands on test...but we rocked it..together. Since that day Jason has just done awesome, and we have learned to adjust very well to LVAD life.
 Jason getting the LVAD brought our relationship to a whole new level, beyond what I ever dreamed of. I am thankful that there was a such thing as an LVAD, because at one time we didnt even know about it, all we were told is he had 3-5 years left. I couldnt believe that God gave me this perfect man, just to take him from me again. But he didnt though...and every day I'm grateful for tha( and I mean EVERYDAY!). We have been through alot this past year and although it hasnt always been easy ( by any means) , we put our trust in God and held on tight to each other. ...Real Tight!

Congratulations Honey ...you made it!! I hope the next celebration will be that of a new heart that God has chosen just for you...